Heads up: if you don't care for long-winded rants, please go about your business!
I wanted to write a journal about something very bitter and sad to my mind. Many of you will already know. But it is about the group pkmn-crossing. This was a group I joined over two years ago. I made an anthro pokemon character (Senri, the trapinch. He is my DA icon, and I have a long comic series with him).
There's 40 of them!
I don't mean to try and plug my own stuff here, but these are works I am immensely proud of! This was where DA began to pick up for me.
Despite being a pokemon character, his personality, and all his muchness, is my own. Truly, he is alive to me. Have you ever made a character that is like a child to you? Senri was what made me draw comics in the first place. And now here I am. Others have drawn him too, indeed, others have told me they love him too! I even made a plushie of him, which I keep close to me, and sometimes even bring with me to uni.
Where am I going with this?
Well, recently the group was destroyed without warning. Yep, that's it. The mods just had enough of being mods and ransacked the place. It feels like the world we all created was, like a light switch, just snuffed out. I (and a few others) would have jumped at the opportunity to take on the role of admin. And I STILL WOULD. I'd do it, gladly! I still live in hope that I may be called upon to revive the group. I have, after all, proven myself a committed and positive member.
The bitterness is in how someone else can create a fertile environment in which characters can be created and grow, only to essentially "kill" those characters in one easy, selfish move.
But my character is my own. And guess what, Senri isn't going to be killed off for the convenience of others. No matter what form he manifests in, he is still Senri. Even when drawn as a human, or outside of pokemon crossing, or anything!
I just really had to say all this, I feel so sad about the whole thing.
That's it really, good on you if you actually read my self pitying rant. ;__;